She Didin't Just Survive. She Became.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Au revoir 2012!
As for resolutions, I try hard not to make them, because I do mostly break them) don't we all ;) but I have promised myself I will read some of my fave literature classics again, and hopefully write more. I also hope there are some more little creative surprises along the way and more delicious music to discover.
Please be safe tonight friends, I hope you enjoy our last few hours of 2012 and please try not to leave this year with a bitter taste. After all the hardship and trials we have faced, upright we stand and that makes us just motherfucking awesome. Thank-you as always for continuing love and support and I wish you all the very best for 2013.
Sunday, December 16, 2012
A not so happy Christmas
I have been totally awful at posting here but honestly it has been a totally awful time as of late. Although I know Emma will have a good Christmas and I still made the best decision giving her up for "adoption" ( I just refer to it as that even though she is with the grandparents) Christmas time is being pesky and unbearably hard on me. It's like having a big owwwwie I cannot seem to clot. And honestly I feel guilty for even worrying about mine and Josh's future fertility, I firmly believe I shouldn't be given the blessing of being a mother again. That saddens me greatly. I don't even know what to do with all these feelings anymore. The only plus is that I still have regualr skype contact with Em. She will have a better, fuller, richer life, more than I could have given her in England and that is all I wanted for her. Maybe this time of year will always be hard on me. I hope she can always feel my love for her. I adore you Emma Marie.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
This time around I may just be able to keep up with blogging. Things are progressively changing and I need a place to document my progress. I like journaling and the interwebs so I thought why not? Hopefully things will keep moving forward. Since moving to California I am on a great combo of meds- hurrah for Depakote and have started therapy with a complete angel of a lady, Miss Courtney Ray. I loves her. Of course my blog will mostly be about recovery from mental illness but also strange ramblings from a bizarre girl shape, thats moi and probably some funny musings along the way. Oh and also I should probably mention I am a smitten lady these days. Marriage suits me huh?! ;)
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